if you asked me if I loved him, I'd lie..

First thought when I wake up, is: my god he's beautiful..

she woke up, and came out of her bed. putted on some make-up and picked some nice clothes out of her closet. She went downstairs and tried to eat something. She was nervous, 'cause she had some tests this whole week, so she was studying a lot these days. Finally, after biking for 10 minutes, she walked into the school. 10 minutes isn't that long, but it deffinatly is with this weather. It was freezing cold outside. She walked through the hallway, and there he was.. My god.. he's beautiful. after talking with her friends for some minutes, her first test started. Biology. She hated that subject. The only nice thing right now, was the fact that he was sitting behind her. "Psssstt.. you know that question?" I heard his voice in my ear, he leaned forward she knew that he meant her, with the "you".. "no i don't understand any of it, sssshht" she response. She knew that if a teacher saw her talking to him, she'd get the worst mark ever. When she was finally able to get out of the room, he came up to her. "So, did your test went well?" his adorable eyes were looking right into her's. "well, not really.." she felt her face turning red. He lend forward and she saw his arms coming up. He hugged her. "It'll be alright, trust me. It will" he looked into her eyes, smiled, and walked away.. Left her standing there, confused, not knowing what to do.

okay so that story is about me, today.. it was kinda awkward talking to him.. I haven't really talked to him for a few days now, 'cause I thought it'd be the best. but I think it just takes some time for me to get over him. 'cause I know, it's better for us, just to stay friends.

Friends. Just friends.

anyways, to you guys:
never lose faith!
xxxxxxxxxxxx

just tell me that you'll stay..

music:

nick jonas & the administration - stay.

We had our past,

leave that behind.
'cause none of it lasts,

all that we have is tonight.

‘Cause you’re not the only one,

who’s ever felt this way.
Don’t let the world cave in,
just tell me that you’ll stay.

Now that the pain is done,

there’s no need to be afraid.
We don’t have time to waste,

just tell me that you’ll stay.

Beautiful, one of a kind.
You’re something special, babe,
you don’t even realize,
that you are my heart’s desire.

never lose faith xxx

Revenge is sweeter than you ever were.

Hi guys :)
How are you today ? I'm fine actually. Most of the times, when I come home from school, I'm not feeling very well, 'cause on school, there's this boy I like a lot. and idk what to do about that. But right now I'm fine :) I think I'm slowly getting over him. and I'm happy about that : )

You might call me crazy; but I kinda like school.. it's my last year on this school, so next year I gotta miss a lot of great people. that's gonna be awefull I guess, 'cause the people I've got to know in those last 4 years, really became a big part of my life. 3 years ago we experienced something that made our bond really strong. a classmate passed away. so right now we're really caring about eachother, and when someone's not feeling right, we're just one big group, trying to make that person feel better. so i'm gonna miss that next year..

but you know, that's just how life is.. you get to know people, but they also dissapear out of your life after some time. but that's not with everyone. I really believe that there are people in my life at this moment, who will still be there when i'm a fourty year old lady. or eighty years.. but some people are just supposed to come into your life, and leave after a few years, just to teach you a lesson. to learn you how to live life..

this is so true, he's my inspiration. he's really amazing: nicholas jerry jonas:
You know, in the moments in life where we think that we got it all figured out, something happens and we realize we don’t. Nothing is ever set in stone. Love is never predetermined. So when you go about this new year, I’m going to encourage you with these words, ‘Live your life with optimism. Live your life knowing that your potential is so much greater that you can even comprehend yourself – NICKJONAS

i gotta go now, but i'm back soon :)
have a nice day, and never never never lose faith.
XO

That was the best night of my life.

hello guys.

I went to the jonas brothers concert in Rotterdam, on November the 13th and that day was the most awesome day of my life. I was standing front row with my best friend and we were so excited. we were shaking, and nervous. when they came on stage we started screaming, so we both had a soar throath the day after the concert, haha. I cried during Nick's speech.. and also when Joe stood in front of me. I just couldn't keep myself from crying.. And Kevin was so awesome with his guitar and and and.. haha. They were even more beautiful in real life. i miss that day, and that's why I wanted to dedicate this update to that night :)

in life, I learned some things.. I can sum them up for you:
*Tears dry, smiles fade, but
memories last forever.

*It goes on, no matter what.

*A smiling face, doesn't always
mean a smiling heart.

*Nothing is ever as bad as it seems.

*You never stop loving someone, you
just learn to live without them.

*You win or you lose, either way the
sun comes up in the morning.

*Never dull your shine for someone else.

never lose faith!
i'll be back soon. I guess tomorrow
but I'm not sure!
'

another survey : )

Where is the last place you went beside home?

school, just got home : )
Do you like anyone?

hmm I don’t really know.. i think i do..
What are you excited for?

jonas brothers worldtour 2010 tourdates, seeing Cynthia again, my bff. She lives miles away from me and I wanna see her..
Can you honestly say you're okay right now?

hmm yeah. Just confused.
What's bothering you right now?

Well, we got a new kitchen today, and the guy who brought it here, is very annoying even though I don’t know him.
Look behind you, what do you see?

the window and people driving on their bike..
What are you listening to?

“Poison Ivy” by Jonas Brothers
Do you wanna see somebody right now?

yeah, Cynthia- Joe, Kevin & Nick Jonas, haha.
What were you doing this morning at 7am?

sleeeeeeeeeeeping :’D

Are you any good at math?

not-at-all. To be honest, it’s my worst subject.
Did you get a full 8 hours of sleep last night?

Nope, just couldn’t sleep, was still awake at 3 and had to wake up at 8 :(
Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

warm.
What was the last thing you burnt yourself on?

hmm, idk if it counts, but I got a cigarette against my arm on new year’s eve, a guy did that. Not on purpose.
How late did you stay up last night and why?

hmm, tried to sleep at half past 10 but I couldn’t :)
Do you think you can last in a relationship for 6 months without cheating?

yes. I mean, I wouldn't even get into a relationship if I’m not completely sure about it..
Is your hair naturally straight?

yess
Do you cry easily?

yeah..
Are there any bruises on your body?

nope :)
What was the last thing you put in your mouth?

water. I’m thirstyyy
If someone looked ON your bed, what would they find?

ehm, pillow and blanket?
Is there someone you liked and nothing ever happened?

yesss.
Ready for winter to come?

nooo. I don’t like freezing alive.
Have you met anybody that changed your life?

yeah, my best friend Cynthia really changed my life.. and the jonas brothers did too, even though it sounds weird, they did.
What's so special about what you're wearing?

nothing?
What are you wearing?

eh a pants with a black shirt and a very light pink vest..
Does anyone know your password?

yeah :)
Have you ever thought you liked someone, and then found out that you really don't.
yeah, I mean, I liked a guy for a few months, we were texting a lot but after some months he started changing and I realized: I don’t like him that much. I liked the guy I thought he was, not the guy he actually was.
Honestly, if you could go back 2 months and change something, would you?
yeah, I’d bring the Jonas brothers concert back around, if I could, haha :)
Would you take $20,000 or a brand new car?
$20,000 ‘cause than you can choose what you wanna buy..
Does the person you like feel the same way?
I don’t know. I really don’t.. sigh.
You're at a party and the person you fell hardest for is there, what do you do?

eh, probably just say hi and just see what happens.. But I don’t know if I would really do that, I’m shy as hell, haha.
Why did you last cry?

eh, last night. Personal thing haha..
Who slept in your bed with you last night?

nobody, alllllllllll alone haha
What woke you up this morning?

my mommy. I had to go to school :(
Did the last person you texted message you back?

yess
Last thing someone told you they were jealous of you for?

eh, my eye colour..
Do you have all the same, or all different passwords for everything?

Some are different but most of them are the same.
What day of the week did or will your birthday fall on this year?
Tuesday, only 2 weeks and today left haha.
What is your current mood?
Tired but happy.
Have you learned any lessons in life?
eh yeah, it goes on.
Are you happy right now?
I'm goood
How do you feel about your hair right now?

it’s okay, I guess.
Three hours ago, were you touching a person of the opposite sex?

eh that was at school, I touched some, yes. Just 3 kisses on the cheek, wishing them a happy new year : )
Where did you get the shirt you're wearing?

H&M and New Yorker

Last person who told you things were going to be okay?

Ummm I guess that was my best friend, Cynthia.. But I don't know.
Is fall the best season?

Not to me..
Have you ever watched the sun rise?

yeah, new year’s day. I went home at 7 o’clock and the sun was allready coming up so.. yeah haha.
How's the weather today?

Freeezin!

i'll be back soon :) next time an update about life, not a survey : )
never lose faith
xxxxxx

survey : )

Happy new year everyone! sorry for not updating a few days,
I've been bussy!

Is your life the same as it was a year ago?
Eh no, time has a way of changing things, right? : )

Do you think boys look good in skinny jeans?
yeaah. I mean, look at the jonas brothers- haha!

Are you happy?
Yeah I think so.. yeah I do. I’m happy : )

Do you trust a lot of girls?
Hmm only some good friends.

Do you have both a loud side and a quiet side?
yeah, offcourse.

Do you like the snow?
Yeah I do, but not when it’s getting blurry and stuff.

Do you think two people can last forever?
Yeah I do.

Are things going the way you planned?
Not always, but I’m contented the way things turn out to be.. I really believe that everything happens for a reason.

What are you listening to?
90210, but there are advertisements on right now, so I just opened Itunes and now I’m listening to ‘Vespers Goodbye’ by Nick Jonas & The Administration : )

Reason behind the last time you laughed really hard?
Hahaha that was newyears eve, kinda long story. But, I like a guy, I guess.. and he wished me a happy new year, so we gave eachother 3 kisses on the cheek, but one kiss went wrong, and landed on his nose, I started laughing really hard than he hugged me and laughed too.. gosh. Wanna forget that night ‘cause an hour after that he kissed my friend on the lipsss.

Compared to this time last year, are you happier or sadder?
Happier!

Who did you last talk on the phone with?
My sister.

What did you wear today?
pants and shirt.

Your best friend needs you at 3 am, do you go help them?
If I can, yeah offcourse!

Where are you going tomorrow?
School, blehhh :(

What are you looking forward to right now?
Jonas brothers worldtour2010 dates.

Do you believe in soulmates?
Yeah! I got one.

Do you brush your teeth twice a day?
yes

What do you notice first in a person of interest?
Eyes or hair..

What's your favorite drink?
lots of things.

Last book you read?
I don’t like reading actually..


i'll be back soon, never lose faith
xxxxxx

IPOD SHUFFLE.

Haaaaai guys :)
I saw this 'game' on internet and I just wanted to do it, and after doing it, I decided to post it :) enjoy. and you guys should really try this too, it's fun : )


1.. Put Your iPod, mp3 player etc on Shuffle
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS

:If someone says "are you okay" you say?
who I am; nick jonas and the administration.
- i likey, 'cause that song is amazing

:How would you describe yourself?
melt the snow; shayne ward

:What do you like in a guy/girl?
what I go to school for; jonas brothers

:How do you feel today?
tell me why; jonas brothers
- trueee true trueeee!

:What is your life's purpose?
vanilla twilight; owl city

:What is your motto?
Everything you’re not; demi lovato

:What do your friends think of you?
when you look me in the eyes; jonas brothers

:What do you think about very often?
fly with me; jonas brothers
- well yeah I think about the jonas brothers a lot, haha!

:What is 2 + 2?
teardrops on my guitar; taylor swift

:What do you think of your bestie?
shooting star; Amy Diamond
- ohmy, that’s scary. ‘cause that’s our song! : )

:What do you think of the person you like?
wish you were here; lady gaga

:What do you want to be when you grow up?
video girl; jonas brothers
- hahahahahahaha.

:What do you think when you see the person you like?
stop and erase; selena gomez

:What do your parents think of you?
hello beautiful; jonas brothers
- aaaaah that would be sweet.

:What will you dance to at your wedding?
Alcoholic party; DJ Kicken
- hahaha that would be lotsss of fun I guess

:What will they play at your funeral?
monster; lady gaga
- hahahahah!

:What is your hobby/interest?
turn right; jonas brothers
- jonasbrothers are my interest yeah, haha!

:What is your biggest fear?
here comes goodbye; rascal flatts
-yeah i hate saying goodbye..

:Whast is your biggest secret?
breathless; shayne ward

:What do you think of your friends?
right here; miley cyrus
thats true. I wanna be there for my friends, always.


never lose faith!
i'll be back soon xxx